If This is Me

Life can feel like a chaotic mosaic, filled with experiences and lessons that shape who we are. Every piece of our past contributes to our identity, beliefs, and future. If this is me, if this is all that I am, would that be enough for me?

As Is

Lately, I have found myself super curious about what I want in life, who I think I am, who I thought I wanted to be, and learning to enjoy more pieces of who I am. The last several months have thwarted me into an existential way of being. If you've experienced this "angst", you probably know how unnerving yet exciting it all can be. On one hand, I see myself as being so vast, and on the other hand, I feel like theres no place to take root because of my nebulous way of being. If this is me, if this is it, I'd like to say that I deserve to give myself more. As I am, as is, & if this is me, I can see how I have a lot of life to live and love to give. I can see where things have gone well and where things have gone directions that brought pain and confusion. I can see how the container that holds my being is filled with so much to see and explore. Part of me longs for more or different. Maybe even better, however, this may be me.

These times bring so much uncertainty. I can feel my dreams grow bigger while some of my hopes dissolve. I can feel parts of me longing for comfort while another part craves distance. As is, I feel quite messy. Messy because the mosaic hasn't quite taken shape the way I'd like it to. Perhaps that version of me is never to be or was not meant for me? Is the current me a version of me that I can be at ease with? What if growth is now choosing rest? What is love is now resisting harm? What if doing less will lead to the most fulfillment? If this is me, I may be a bit more chaotic and vivacious than I thought I'd be. I think I am beginning to understand why some have shared about how meaningful life in your late 20s and beyond can truly be. If this is me, I can sense that I am open to way more possibilities which a younger version of me would have never considered.

Do you ever find yourself being loyal to a version of yourself that no longer exists?

The Mosaic of Our Multitudes

At times, the mosaic of our life can appear fragmented and overwhelming. Shifting your perspective can bring clarity and help you appreciate the beauty in the chaos. As you explore your personal mosaic, it’s essential to set intentions for where you want to go next. Intentions act as a guiding star, helping you navigate your path with purpose and determination.

To set your intentions, ask yourself:

• What do I want to cultivate in my life?

• What values do I want to prioritize?

• How can I create a future that aligns with my true self?

Final thoughts

By acknowledging your past, embracing change, setting intentions, building supportive relationships, and committing to continuous learning, you can rediscover your mosaic and fully appreciate the beauty within yourself. So when you ponder, “If this is me,” remember that you are a magnificent collection of experiences, each piece vital for your personal growth. Celebrate your mosaic, and let it guide you on your journey toward self-discovery and fulfillment.